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Happy Presidents Day!

Is it just me or does Presidents Day feel more auspicious than usual? Maybe it’s because this is an election year. Maybe it’s because we are yearning for the seeming stability of the presidents we idolized in grade school. Or maybe it’s because we are all inundated with breaking political news every five seconds and the media’s obsession with comparing and contrasting every flub and foible uttered by the presumptive candidates. For me, it’s safer for my sanity to just read the highlights of the day, preferably from Letters from an American, and go about my day in my comfy cave minding my own business.

I’m happy though, that we still remember and memorialize George Washington and Abraham Lincoln. Frankly, I’m happy that we remember any history at all given the environment of persecution and denial we live in. I have fond memories of learning about our forefathers, memorizing the old tropes of reading by candlelight and walking miles to return a borrowed book. Reading under the covers by flashlight after lights out seemed acceptable to my young mind. Lincoln’s dedication to learning made it okay for me to read A Wrinkle in Time for the tenth time after midnight. George Washington, on the other hand, while a great president, was a wish-washy role model. In fact, I held a grudge against George  between the ages of six and eight. Telling the truth was an admirable quality but chopping down that cherry tree in the first place was unforgivable. 

Two houses down from us lived the Thompsons, an older couple with no kids. Their backyard and ours, as well as several yards in both directions from our back door, were connected by a field of grass, wild flowers, and clover. Smack in the middle of the Thompsons’ yard was a huge cherry tree redolent of blossoms in the spring and heavy with fruit through the summer. That tree was also smack in the middle of my run to my best friend’s house two doors down from the Thompsons. One day on my way to Paige’s house, Mr Thompson caught me gazing up at the ripening cherries and made me a friendly offer. I could eat all of the cherries that fell from the tree if I promised not to climb it. I quickly agreed and kept my promise. At every opportunity, I gorged on the abundance of cherries that fell from the tree.

I loved that cherry tree in all its glory, festooned in blossoms, green leaves, or snow covered limbs but summertime, despite the risk of stepping on honey bees with my bare feet, was the best. Two summers later, my parents had built a house and we were moving. I walked around to the backyard, heading out to say goodbye to Mr Thompson. From the edge of our yard, I watched as he carefully shook each lower branch of the cherry tree, dropping the ripe cherries to the ground. For me, I realized. That’s why there were always so many!

That George Washington, the father of our country would have the audacity to chop down something so beautiful as a cherry tree felt traitorous to me, to my love for the cherries, to the tree, and I think to Mr Thompson and his generous spirit. To my great relief, I later learned that the story was fabricated, like so many stories we hear today in an attempt to laud or defame. 

We need truth to keep us on course and we need leaders who in their humble humanity challenge and inspire us to be better and to do better. We need men like Lincoln and Washington to remind us where we come from and how far we have come. 

Change of Venue

Life moves fast! I didn’t really understand how fast until change struck like a thunderbolt from the sky and I found myself on the road–and homeless. Oh, I had places to go and people with whom I could stay, but it’s a ghastly feeling when reality hits and you realize that everything you own is in the back of the UHaul truck barreling down the highway in front of you and a tie that has kept you bound and whole is severed for good. Or for ill, as the case may be. It is possible to go from secure to floundering in less time than it takes to catch your breath. It’s one of those moments when “just breathe” is out of the question because there’s no more oxygen left in the room, or in your body; when anger and pain are the fuel that ignites motion and breath is simply gone.

I’ve been looking for the silver lining to that dark cloud of disappointment. There isn’t one, or at least not one that I can see. The heaviness of loss is slowly leaving my body but the buoyancy of lightness and happiness is still hovering. I can feel it out there, waiting for me to lighten up. And I will. For now, I am content to explore the limits of yet another venue, to change what I can change, to carve out another comfy cave from which to think and write and ponder the meaning of life. It’ll come. I just have to remember how to breathe.

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Home

 Castle

There’s a webcam at Eilean Donan Castle in Dornie, Scotland. My daughters and I had been checking in on the castle for quite some time during our trip preparation, watching the tide move in and out, keeping tabs on the weather and the wind. Anticipating contact with our families back home, we set a date and time for our own webcam appearance. At the appointed hour, we waved and smiled and laughed, letting our families know we were having a wonderful time. In return, we received texts with confirmation that they could see us, a happy moment for the little ones and their mamas.

When we got home eight days later, I found that my husband had, indeed, used my office computer to watch us at the castle. I’d set it up so that all he had to do was click on the link and the webcam feed would appear. I guess I forgot to tell him to exit out of the site because when I woke the mouse, there on the screen was a frozen image of the three of us gazing up at the castle. I got the strangest feeling as I called my daughters in to look at us. Time had frozen in that moment and although here we stood in my office, there we were in Scotland, happily anticipating another week of joy.

I couldn’t bring myself to close the page. As long as the image remained on the screen, some remnant of me still roamed the hills, the battlefields, the castles far away. I still felt connected by some magical link to a land that felt strangely more like home than any other place I’ve ever been. I used to think that Santa Fe was the place where my bare feet tingled happily with the most home-like vibration. In Scotland, however, even through heavy hiking boots, I could feel the magnetic pull that begged me to stay.

Thunderstorms swept through last night, littering the yard with palm fronds and pine needles, taking down limbs and knocking out power. The image is gone. I knew it before I opened my eyes in the dark, feeling the silence of the house around me. It’s strange how even from the depths of deepest sleep the body senses change. I sleep in pitch black with the white noise of a whirring fan drowning out the creaking noises of the house settling around me. Something had subtly shifted, something tangible but untrackable in the haze of sleep and dark silence. I felt it. I am fully home.

We’ll Be Right Back After This Message

Today is a travel day. My posts at Cave Dweller might be a little spotty for the next couple of weeks as I tour the Highlands with my family but I’ll do my best to keep in touch. Unsocial tendencies aside, I’ve really enjoyed getting to know many of my readers over the past few weeks and I’m looking forward to a long, continuing friendship with all of you–from my cave to yours.

Have fun while I’m gone. Read a good book (you might find one you’ll like to the left), get some rest, leave me a comment about what’s going on in your world. To quote one of my favorite movies, “I’ll be back!”

Next stop: Glasgow!